I have thought a lot over the past few days about the state of the world and about the state of myself. Sometimes it is unbelieveable when I think where I am. I never thought I would be living where I live and doing what I am doing, never mind getting married and starting a life with someone so wonderful...but here I am. So on Sunday I ran the length of the beach in the warm muggy air and while I was running I was watching people live. I watched couples holding hands with sand between their toes, kids with sandy wet hair wrapped in over sized towels, birds catching the breeze and showing off their brilliant white bellies, people walking dogs, people fishing, people living. And I had a thought....life keeps getting better.
Sunday marked a day that all of us remember as a time where we needed to look a little deeper into life, to cherish things a little more, and appreciate all we have. Tragedy isn't an easy thing to come face to face with. We all have tough stuff in our lives whether it hits us as a nation, a family, a community, or we struggle with it alone. Life keeps it interesting (and sometimes challenging) for all of us....but it does keep getting better.
I thought a lot about the stories people have about 9/11. Sad and touching stories that I would never be able to understand. My story? Well I remember where I was when I heard the news and which class I was in. But my real memory about that time was while I was driving in my hometown from a soccer game and every single house had candles lit outside...I sobbed the whole way because I couldn't figure out where to put this awful thing that had happened to our country. And I remember thinking that my generation would be stuck in this war and I would see friends going to fight for our country.
I often think about all the men and women that decided to give their live s to fight for our country during this time. God bless them. Sometimes when I think about what these people have sacrificed I have to stop everything I am doing and just breath it in. And like clock work I think about my life and the reason why Dan has been so far away for so long....to keep this country safe from terrible things. He is gone because of ignorance, hatred, misunderstanding, and greed. I could never do it and that is the honest truth but I thank God everyday for Daniel and I thank God everyday for the men and women who give up everything to protect this country.
It is hard to know where to draw the line of the past, present, and future. Where do we move on and where do we take the time to remember. It is a idea I struggle with a lot because life does keep getting better. But the hard truth is life only gets better because of ALL the stuff in the past...the good, the bad, the ugly. What I have come to learn about the past is that remembering is always wonderful and honoring something is always important...we wouldn't be the people or the country we are today without it.
And I promise....life will keep getting better.
"There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind." -C.S. Lewis